He Loves Me He Loves Me Not

They say that love shouldn't hurt "He doesn't love you if he hurts you." They say that love shouldn't be toxic "He doesn't love you if he depletes you." But that's just it. I knew it was love because it hurt. Hurt love raised me. It's the only love that I've ever known. Toxic love saved me from the depths of self destruction. I held onto it when everything else was slipping from my palms. It held onto me with a tight grip. When I was standing on the edge of sanity,toxic love reeled me in. His broken home was better than no home at all. His torn jacket kept me warm in the coldest of nights. His cold heart pumped life into my scarred one. He imperfect ways paved the way to love.