he (long distance)

my friends ask me why do i miss him why did i love him i tell them i dont know but i know it he was always there for me he was always caring about me wasnt he? and even when he made me cry when we talk i feel like i can fly and suddenly he is gone i look on all the apps on my phone snapchat blocked tiktok blocked instagram blocked even on whatsapp i am blocked i feel like trash like i am the problem i dont even know why i just want to ask him where are you? how are you? did you find someone better? what are you doing all day? but i i cant he is gone and i feel like this time this time it is forever like we were never even now i miss him and i love him but is this real love? he told be forever but now it feels like we were never