Have I Grown or..?

Have I Grown or..? I feel I have grown out Of all those. I once had a profound bond.  I no more feel the same joy that I used to enjoy. Their presence ignites my soul Drives me insane  Instead of joy now it causes me pain!! I have become completely barren To how they behave.  I don't run for advice  To be 'Gentle' and 'Nice'. I take my decisions And I stake my life.