Hate me, Please don't hate me

In your deepest sorrows, does your heart say- "She may be innocent" "she is just different" "she's a good person" or does it continue to blame me hate me root for my downfall so it thinks, it's moving on with all the hatred it shows just like I wanted it to be but "I" here is too bold, how can it be so selfish about "us" it didn't even think of me and you alone so "I" had to make this decision when "I" is caught in deepest sorrows too out of hatred too- on me and on you.