hate

I hate that I still love you... after everything you've done to me. I hate that I still want you... after you pretended not to notice me. I hate that I still miss you... when you so clearly abhor me. I hate you too, but what I hate even more is how I've fallen in love with you. you burned me and hurt me. you kicked me and beat me. I was nothing but good to you. I always pleased you. I done everything you said. but you still walked away. you still dug my grave. I'm dying because of you. my heart is broken, and my bones are not solid. my blood runs cold, and I think that this torture is over. but it only just started. you wanted to have me. I gave it my all. but then you got bored, and that's when you let me fall. the floor was cold, but your words were colder. the look in your eyes, maybe I was mistaken, for I thought that showed everything was really over.