hate

i hate myself i hate myself a little more everyday there are days where i think i love myself, but i know it goes away. i hate myself for being stupid. for not understing simple concepts that everyone grasps easily. I hate myself for using excuses to justify my stupidness. And i hate involving people because of me being dumb and just an irresponsible procrastinator. I hate myself because I can't change. Or maybe i use "can't" as an excuse because I'm so ridiculous that perhaps I don't even want to change. I hate myself.