hate

why can't I just talk each day is all the same I wake up go mute and repeat I wish I was normal why is it I self destruct there are many people who know me as quiet but don't know the real me how can I be myself when I've been in this cycle almost my whole life the times I was talkative was as a child but it all got shut down many would say shut up and my parents would reject me maybe this is how I cope but I hate it will I ever get out of this unfixed trauma