hard truth to face

ur face haunts me ur smile , daunting nothing makes sense anymore, I want to just lie on the floor. remember when you asked if you could fix it.. I was about to drive away.. and that's what u had to say.. what's sad is that I didn't know.. I just needed to go. and when I did, instead of facing it, you hid. I thought u would make some changes go through some stages, but that you would be there, I had been hurt, but i still care. I would've hurt a million times over if it meant it would help you. I would've died trying had it not been for those 2. those boys gave me the courage to walk away, and even when I didn't know what to say, my love for those boys helped me to pray. I asked for so many signs and then ignored them all I asked God to save you, but you u didn't hear His call I got on my knees, and I begged you to stop what we were doing u didn't know how to. It was myself. i was fooling i still ask myself why I didn't tell you no that first night, the first flight I think because tylor was there , or because telling u no has never seemed fair you were looking straight at me waiting anticipating it's like u knew I couldn't resist.I wish that day didn't exist and that we weren't like this