Hard to love

I'm a man of many flaws I'm gaining wisdom as I make mistakes.... Learning lessons as I grow and life doesn't stop or give me breaks... I'm quiet and observant,plus I hide most of my emotions... But believe me when I tell you, my passions deeper than the oceans... I know I'm hard to love I'm mentally fucked up sinking down in depression... I have so much love to give but often show too much aggression.... Then my existence I start to question, does love have its own discretion... Cuz when I'm alone at night I can't seem to make connections.... My attitude comes off unapproachable, I've heard my anger pushes everyone away.... Never mind being hard to love, it's harder for them to want to stay... Pain breeds strength but instead I feel departed... There's a lot of scars and cuts but my worst is broken hearted... All them countless nights I wanted love or them lonely times I've been rejected... Eventually I found out the truth but left my heart out unprotected.. Cuz I'm not trying to be perfect but at least better than I used to be.. I got a few more mistakes to make before I will finally get to see..