Hard life, soft life

Life is hard It's actually funny I better laugh it off I really don't want to cry about it If I don't laugh, I'll cry This life is hurting me Worse than I'm hurting myself Even sticks and stones wouldn't hurt me this much I'm laughing as hard as I can Yet tears are rolling down as fast as I can I know I'm not special But I don't deserve to hurt like this I didn't do anything to anyone I didn't wrong anybody Sometimes I hate this life Yet I still choose it I haven't even found my purpose yet I still have to find it Then fulfill afterwards Maybe then I can leave this life in one piece Despite it tearing me to pieces Pieces that I can't pick up I'm all over the place