happiness ?

2 whole months ago I was in your arms, trembling, watching over everything I said or done down to the way I breathed so you wouldn't raise your voice at me. when did I allow you such great power? when did you realize you had it ? Now I'm laying in silence, rare calls I get are from my mom and I'm not crying because you hurt me. again. It's okay if no one reaches out anymore. It's okay if I'm alone. I realise I can love myself. I can complete me. Today, I looked at the mountain for an hour, I went running and I watched a movie by myself and I felt happy. I didn't need you to feel I am worthy of existing. I don't need you to be happy. I am happy. I do exist.