growing up

I loved life when I was younger being an innocent little girl. watching silly kid shows, playing with dolls, going to the park, making friends, enjoying primary school, being happy. she was so excited to become a school prefect, she was proud of herself. I wish I could be young again, why did I have to grow up, i'm a shadow of who I was, staring at the wall, isolating myself, loosing friends, self harming, dropping out of school, I don't want to be here anymore, but I don't want to ruin her future my innocent little girl. I live life to get back to you.