grow up pt 1

i wanted to dance on the beach with you I wanted fall in love with you I wanted smoke with you I wanted skate with you I wanted roam the night with and you watch the stars I wanted fall asleep in your arms I wanted feel safe around you I wanted you to be my bsf my world I could only hope that would feel the same but instead you played with my heart and left me Ina dessert of lies driving me insane waiting for me to "figure it out" when you knew it was all js a maze with no out you laughed in my face and treated me like I only existed when I was needed and threw me away when u found something more exciting hurting me was exciting for you abdonding me abusing me lying to me depriving me degrading me you were my world and I was a germ in another galaxy this isn't desperate, this is anger because I loved you and you loved the thought.