goodbye my beloved

it wasn't supposed to happen it shouldn't have happened that way but it did and when it did I wasn't there to hold your hand for the final time to have one last moment together our relationship was far from perfect but there is no perfect relationship although we said hateful things to each other God knew we didn't mean them apart of my soul went with you on the day you left this world everyday since then I have blamed myself and suffered more day by day for I'm losing control without your love and being here with me it feels like a bad dream that I can't wake up from I still hear your voice I Miss your touch I will always love you but wasn't there didn't make it in time to hold your hand to whisper softly goodbye my beloved .