Going Threw The Emotions

I was readin a poem & it got me to thinkin. Yes, it's a terrible thing that sadness can cause us to be broken. When I was young, I never gave it a second thought. But as the years flew by, it got closer than I wanted. Sadness, death, & depression are all caused from worry. Stress will kill u the fastest & in a hurry. Or one can have years full of trama. & I guess right beside it comes the drama. Everyday that one dwells in the sadness, it takes years off your life. But at the time u really can't tell it. Then one day your heart starts to hurt. It beats differently & sickness starts to leark. Since I was young I felt that feeling way too much. It grew bigger as with each unwanted touch. And after one failed relationship after another, and with an eating disorder, I tried to get ahold of it. Then later in life I met emotions of abandonment. I've learned to do all things by myself. I do not count on anybodies help. But now I've lost so many, I no longer fear death. It would be a welcomed site. This life full of pain has taken my fright. I see it as I'm going home. No more pain. No more in this life trying to gain. So don't live your life all in vain. Make each day count never the same.