glances and stares

Sometimes I wonder if he looks at me, like is he looking and glancing at me or someone behind me, or when I'm talking and he is there, when i glance back at him in the middle the person is talking and he is glancing or looking at me at the same time, or when he jokes and looks at me first, or even the time when I smiled and his eyes looked so lovingly at me with a smile back, or I am just thinking about it too much, do I just want to be loved