Giving up

I thought I'd keep up with this, a poem a day, but that turned into a poem every other day, and finally none. I thought I'd grow somehow or develop a skill, but ultimately self defeating thoughts prevailed. Suddenly the pressure to improve made me force creation, forgetting what it's like to feel and letting that guide the words. I've acknowledged that it's fine to create something every once in a while, I'd rather feel genuine than forced.