Ghost

I'm numb but I'm hurting. I'm sad but there's no tears. Heartbroken but not showing. How can I tell you? Why are my feelings so hard to describe. I'm drowning and I feel if no body sees. I'm reaching out, but I have no one there. It comes and goes. I'm happy one moment but it disappears within moments. Is this who I am to be? Is this what we have? One where I can feel just so suddenly gone from your sight. so far from your reach. I see the way you see me. But you don't see me. How badly I want to disappear. Never to feel a thing again.