Get up

no matter how many times I fell fell into heartbreak or sadness I always got backup no, it was because I was 'strong' and it wasn't because I believed in myself it was because nobody was coming to save me if I didn't save myself. who would? my life didn't feel like mine nor does it feel like I'm living it it feels like I merely surviving it barely getting past obstacles every day but life never felt like I was living for myself but not to let down or disappoint others everything was for others never for me, not even in the slightest even if I had bruised knees and hands bleeding lips and black eye nobody cared..no. nobody noticed like a shadow in a dark room I could only rely on myself because who would save me?