fucked up again

Ass-end up I fucked up disappointment is a curse, my will power at its worst. liquor, mentally sicker, values tossed aside and misused. those that smile at my ignorance will no doubt profit from my relevance. sweet words, a facade, of perception never fails to snowball my ignorance. Like a doe to a fawn, I'm worked like a pawn. downed, clowned, from each corner, across the town. Drugs alcohol are no match at all for the sad toll that outsiders control. self hate Everytime I take the bait. In my head and from my lips I push and negotiate try and contemplate before I let down my guard and seal my fate. self hate SELF HATE GOD WHERES THE OWNERS MANNUAL TO RESET MY WORTH I FUCKED UP AGAIN . I FUCKED UP WITHOUT SOMEONE TO HOLD MY HAND. stupid girl shame on you