fuck

My emotions are so violent its hard not to scream. I crave you I long for you. why the fuck did I see you again why did my heart suddenly forgive you why did it flutter at our lost connection why did I turn you down when you meant so much to me You shined like a lighthouse bringing me to port from the terrifying dark roaring sea Now I wish I could turn back time. But who cares. You cared once I'm scared to know if you still think of it. of what could have been. Maybe because you don't even think about it anymore. I hope you don't. But I saw you happy. I don't think I could ever ruin that again assuming I even had the power to begin with. Your smile fulfilled me even if your love is now for someone else. She better be nice or I'm going to kick her ass. I don't remember if I ever told you that my favourite line in La La Land was "I'm always going to love you". I think my heart resonates with that towards you, only towards you. I don't think you know it. I hope you don't know it. My feelings are spilling when they should not exist. Anyway I hope you never read this. I wonder why I told you about my poems to begin with. It's strange because you're the only person I ever wrote poems about.