Frustrated

I'm so frustrated I'm so upset I'm so mad But at what? Is it me? Is it you? I feel so lonely But I won't do anything to change I feel like im slowly drowning And my sanity is leaving There is so much noise in my head I wanna go back to what made me feel the worst What made me cry every night Im so overwhelmed But yet so underwhelmed. Why do I feel this way? Is it because I did something wrong Was it a mistake I made Maybe I make myself fuck up I just wanna know what goes through your head Why are you so hard to figure out? Why are you so distant I know that im overwhelming and im sorry I just don't want you to leave You're the first I've loved But why do you want to leave? It's so frustrating Im surrounded by quicksand And there's no way out But do I really want a way out? Or do I just wanna drown again.