friendship

I thought I found the hands that will hold mine when I am down, But it was all my fantasy, in my head I thought friendship was real and happens in reality, Gradually I have come to realise that they are here for their benefit. I am so glad I realised that it is was all in my imagination., I finally choose to pick my self first in all I do than to keep fighting for people who eventually leave me to suffer in pain, And if all I do Is called selfishness, I choose to be selfish but in my word I am only showing my self the true love that I deserve. Friendship is real but doesn't last and even it last I choose to love my self before anyone.