friends -steph morgan

Friends. The meaning of 'friends' means two people that stick together forever. I know what it's like to have 'that' friendship, but I also know what it like to not. Or even on somedays I don't have one at all. sometimes your friends or group can leave you sitting alone not thinking about yu once, I know what it's like to be sat there amongst everyone's conversations not knowing where to start. I feel different. I feel different compared to all my other friends, like when they can talk but i cant? I guess I struggle to use my words, because I don't want our friendships to fall apart. or when I'm presenting to the class,I hate it. it's like no one even pretends to care or ask why can't I just be them. why can't I be like everyone else and not be the 'quiet' friend? I know I overthink alot but what If I'm right. did they even like me anitially. People think im always sad when I'm not. maybe it's because I don't talk much. I tell everyone I can't start a conversation not even through a text. I'd rather be on my own than even think about when I should talk. It's hard for people to believe when I'm happy or sad because sometimes even I don't know. I know I'm hard to talk to but please just give it a chance.