Friends Regardless

Regardless of what my feelings are I'd rather be your friend that's what I keep repeating in the the mirror that's what I repeat with every text that I send not outwardly, or openly, or honestly in a way that is known because regardless of what my feelings are there feeling for you will never be shown, again besides the one or two slip ups where I stared for too long I thought I used to like you but I guess that's how I felt all along but it was three in the morning and you were just about to go so I just opened the door for you and said "you're the best person, that I know" and usually these feelings are unmerited and hollow I don't know them that well they're just somebody else that I call to I love them, before I like them and when it ends I never like them at all this person, I convinced myself they were worth the fall but here I keep tripping on the way to forget how you make me feel I love them before I like them but I like you enough to heal I'd rather be your friend and know about your day and you tell me all these secrets I'm a vault with a chain a locked up save where I keep the pain I think your outstanding, brilliant, to me, without a flaw but I would rather be your friend 1/2