"Friends"

I met you then suddenly everything became so calm, I thought you were just an ordinary guy who laughs at my corny jokes, That’s what i thought at first. But after all you’re different, the way you talk and laugh, it feel so unreal when you’re around, we’re “friends” i kept reminding myself I still couldn’t believe myself falling for you, the way you talked to me feel so calm. “Does he feel the same way too” i kept asking myself, still wondering if you do, and here i am gaslighting myself you like me too I guess my love for you is golden, so expensive that no one can have it but you. I wish i could express my love for you but i couldn’t, i kept it in myself, trapped in the prison of my own making. I feel so lucky that i met someone like you, who understands my deepest thoughts and feelings. Your presence i wanted to be near, You slipped in my thoughts everywhere. You became a dream, I don't want to wake up from, I started to wonder if you ever thought of me. Loving you has always been the one thing my heart has known how to do without doubt or fear, all that i can do is to love you from afar in silence, and knowing it's impossible for us.