friends

i have flashbacks of them, the memories of us being friends I know I have good people in my life just enough to get me me by, I love them but I miss my old friends, missed aleast the joy I had with them it's hard to be friends with others where you feel like you can't always be yourself I laugh and make you jokes here n there but it's not the same with the other friends I use to have..who are no longer good to me at all.. my heart hurts and makes me want to cry, because different memories flood my brain and make me think of you.. but I didn't deserve it the way you and other people treated me..soo it's okay I could miss them because I miss having people I can be comfortable with or be myself out of joy but that doesn't mean I miss the person who you were to me after So I will be comfortable with people who truly deserve me when I'm at my highest and most present of myself... with alot of joy