friEND

It's been 10 months since we last texted. your 16th birthday is next week and I don't know if I should wish you a happy birthday or not, you probably don't even think about me anymore, you moved on and I seem to be unable to, maybe because I truly hoped that we would spend the rest of our live together, we planned it like that. but somewhere deep down I knew we could never, I noticed pretty early that things you said hurt me deeply but I always blamed it on myself, that I was to sensitive and shouldn't care so much. I still did. I couldn't just turn my feelings off, even though I really wanted it, I couldn't. for 10 months i've secretly hoped that you would text me, apologize for all the pain, all the blood and all the tears you've caused, but I'm not even sure you know.