forever stuck

To the boy I've loved the longest. My love, my heart, my mind. You, of all things have corrupted all of me. I'm drowning; suffocating, marinating in the attention you overwhelm me with. I'm buried deeply inside a dark pit filled with your unexpected surprises; I can't find a way to escape but... I feel I'm falling slow and soft— and I'm enjoying it. I'm searching, yearning, desperate for your attention, affection every second I breathe. Every moment my chest rises and falls. Every moment my eyes flutter and flinches; I'm silently begging for you, craving the taste of your sweetly tasting bitterness. Every smile, Every stare, Every blond strand of hair. Everyday, All the time, You're uneffortlessly treasured in my mind.