First.

In becoming a man that deserves you, as you so gently put with your words of sharpened knives. I have become a man you don't deserve. all your fear and paranoia, all your anxiety and self harming acts, all your pecking kisses and barley existing hugs. all belong to your new toy. I will not be your mouse ever again nor anyone else's. I will not be your sweet devil to summon when you wish to play. I will not be your white knight to slay the dragons, nor your mage to light the way in the dark. I will not seek you out nor will I be your company. I will not forgive or forget your transgressions. the man you knew is gone. all thats left are the scars you left on my heart. the man thats here in his place will not approach the world with such kindness. i will never again be somebody's second thought. for if I learned nothing eles from you, I learned to put myself first.