Feelings😞

Why do we gotta feel though? Its like you are in control but you are not Like you are in love but you are not You are sure you are losing your shit but you got it all together Trynna smile, trynna deceive yourself you are fine but you ain't Why do we gotta feel though? We don't know when we are hurt We keep giving ourselves reasons Bout how we aren't supposed to feel or to hurt or whatever But that just makes things worse Because we are hurt,sad,angry,annoyed for reasons even we don't know and it's insane Why do we gotta feel though? If things were different,maybe we'd be able to hide away from the world Lock ourselves behind closed doors and forget about having our wounds opened Ignore the world and not have to worry about whether or not they are paying attention to how you feel Leave the world be and not have to think about how it fucked you over Why do we gotta feel though? Maybe if we didn't,we wouldn't give two shits about the people that don't give a shit about us Maybe we'd begin today like yesterday wasn't bad and everything is alright Maybe we'd be able to block the voice in our head that keeps saying "you have no right to be sad,you are just being dramatic" It's just too much for me.