Feeling

Today I woke up, and my feeling was all over the place because I have something that inspires me. Something that my heart desired. Because I have a dream that my life will change, but I have to close one down to walk through another. Or it won't come to reality because I am scared of what is another side. Then I think about how far you have come. The first time I put myself first. But then I doubt myself just like I doubt my writing because fear is a big part of me. I am scared of making the wrong diction. My past shows me how to challenge myself. Because I didn't have a voice to speak. My life wasn't mine. It was just me and my writing. I did have a voice to speak. But writing it down is my way of saying it, and being a woman s my superpower. Being a survivor change me. Being a victim tries to take me down. Being a writer saves me. Taking a chance on something always scares me because I don't want to let myself down. It is hard to do something for me without feeling guilty. Now I am trying to put myself first. Without doubt myself. To make sure I write everything I am feeling. I am stuck between two books—one book about a girl who loves to write. Who wants to use her writing to change life. Just by telling her