Fears

Dear fears , I finally could decode you . All this the thing I used say as my fears were actually not true . 11 year old me to my friends that I am afraid of water but deep down I never I knew I was actually afraid of drowning . 12 year old me was afraid of trusting people but deep down I never knew I was afraid to be betrayed again . People thought it utterly stupid because losing a friend maybe did not gave so pain but what if the friend was the one whom I trust the most ? 13 year old me was afraid of being left alone but deep down I never knew I was afraid of being lonely . I was afraid of feeling absolutely numb in a place crowded with humans . 14 year old me was afraid to expectation maybe because that hurt me a lot or maybe because I was afraid to love ........ What if that person doesn't love me back? 15 year old me now know all of this and accepted it . She overcomed some of it but some are still there .