Favorite person

I put this person above Yet I don't deserve love Placed on a pedestal Then, mistake them for a fool Good Amazing Desirable Perfect That's all they can be. Until it switches Horrible Hurtful Distrust Distain That's what they'll always be. Why must it be Good and bad Wrong or right Why can't I think normal How do I value them and then devalue them in an instant They are my favorite person Yet I find myself undesirable They are so perfect But I can't even look at myself My favorite person shouldn't leave me Yet I detach and push myself away My mind is irrational and dreadful But my favorite person is rational and comforting I hope my favorite person will stay I'll keep my thoughts and emotions at bay.