Fate Reversed

Because of a choice i made myself UNSATISFIED NOT happy So I bet i die Being MISERABLE? hiding Who i am not smiling Living In sin Living Always having to lie Not Being able to Smile Left me Afraid to be me anymore Never honest I was Forced to become a liar wasn't I forced to Pretend I was never Happy Just crazy now Tired of it Being filled with self hate I've given up I know i'm a mess That's just me Honestly I want to be honest I have to say I'm gay But I'm Not sure how good it feels to confess It doesnt the truth is Kept hidden but It shouldn't have had to be No Words to describe how Filthy it feels such Awful lies I dont have ANYONE to tell You know men who like men Spends eternity in Hell Taught as a kid homesexuailty was a sin I was taught Not to enjoy life Genuinely Or To embrace sin Getting Locked And trapped not being happy with who I am It's my choice to be happy Accepting I'll die miserable Unless I turn things around Now So I will