fate

my heads pounding but I keep it low I wanna scream but my words keep me choked I wanna say what's stuck inside but I feel trapped in my own mind and I don't think this is a healthy way to cope. I know it's not easy and I never said what I was feeling what's trapped in my head.. where's the cold when my world's on fire time is passing me by the hour and I hope that it's not too late.. to stop my fate to stop the future isn't my desire to change the courses is all that I crave there's a feeling inside but like the others it turns numb so I can't feel it at all I don't want to be my own downfall I don't want to close the curtains but who was there when I was scared, I was nervous no one ever knew when I was actually hurtin I never told you because I felt like a burden if I could change anything..I wouldn't change the past and as much as it hurts me I want my life to last I don't want to make my family cry or force anyone to say goodbye because they don't deserve that it's one simple fact to face, you can't change your fate..