Far away

Everything feels off so far away from my soul, I do react, I do smile, I do laugh, I do cry, but I don't feel the same anymore. When I take a good grade...I don't feel satisfation joy or surprise. I made it,does it worth a real smile? Am I going in the right way? or I'm just in my head? what I see is real or just in my mind? and what I feel...is right? I want to disappear from the world. take a little break from life, who doesn't wish those? I'm such a brat,hipocrite, coward teenager that doesn't worth the life that she's having. I deserve pain,sufference because I'm wrong because I am a bad girl, a bad daughter, and a bad person. I'm wrong...I'm wrong... I'm a mistake of the world. And I just hope That I'll leave this world as soon as possible. I