Family that meant to be broken

We are Happy Family but that what's people think, We are Broken family but other people think we're happy We are broken because of that one person in the family that keeps ruining things just to play victim and stay as clean as she thought she is We have a lot of Family pictures but behind those pictures, there's a history people think we're happy but if they just know the history they will not think we are a happy family I'm tired of faking that we are complete I'm tired of saying we are happy I'm tired of people that saying we are happy family that happy family you see is not the way it was, you see, at the age of three I feel so ugly, i feel the insecurities, I don't know how I'd already known that even I'm just three years old kid, I already know things that I shouldn't at the age of nine to twelve I already an anxiety and depression not just because of the stress of my study but also because of my family, they pressure me they make me feel weak, but they are also the reason to make me feel strong, they make a attitude worse when all I've ever known that I was a girl who is very nice, very attentive, and obedient. they asked why did you become like that? because it's them who make me worse.