family is a poison

what more can i do, i feels lonely. no matter how i act, i am always misunderstood. what my existance for, people think of me as a useless, worthless, wicked, vile, and heartless person. All i ask is a little love, affection and understanding. I feel lonely, despite having many people, sometimes i regret my birth. No one sees my tears, the words they spit out from their mouth, are like cobra poison slowly giving me a painful and slow death. I wish i can kill myself, and see this life doesnt belong to me.they see me as the black sheep Who brings nothing but pain. i hate this life, life is a blessing, but to me it's a curse. why, why, why cant i be understood. the tears i hold makes them think i am strong hearted. No one knows i am so weak, and i need a sholder to lean on.IS ThIS WHAT AM DESTINED TO BE SEEN AS. i feel lifeless and worthless, am all on my own, i have no home nor family to love me or be There for me in my in my weakest moments. No one sees me, when i City people. No one understanding my feelings. i feel hatred and abandoned