falling again.

I wanted to get over you so bad and i swore it was the last time that I cared yet somehow you always manage to mess with my head. It's so wrong, I'd decide but i can't help the way it still happens for the tenth time - I'm falling for you, once again. I notice all the little things about you that made me fall for you a bit more than a year ago, I notice the way I keep staring at you in class, when I should be focused on the task. I notice the way my heart beats faster when you enter the room, and I hate it so much. I'm confused and lost, the feeling is so familiar but it's something i haven't felt for you in months. Did I really fool myself again into believing that it's not you who I think about while the rain? I did, but when i remember that something else happens as well - I forget that it's also you who caused me so much pain without ever knowing it.