falling

i was once afraid of falling but lately i feel drawn to it to fall uncontrollably to feel the wind on my skin threatening to go through it to memorize my veins to stir my blood to fall with my eyes closed comfort overwhelming me the air carrying me like those arms i crave to fall quickly yet slowly feeling of time passing by yet not moving at all but you wouldn't understand because while i'm falling you're watching me go down my last minutes are destined to be you letting me down one last time.