fake friends

we all have fake friends or have been there some of us find a group safe and sound while other like me are left to lounge I feel like all of my friends are fake but they'd never say look ive never been chosen first and if I had its to make them better im here when ur crying but when I need you your no where around I spend money countless pounds and pennies just make you happy and all I get is fake friends you smile to my face but behind me laugh at all I do it hurts to find my closet friends using me for something other than my words im not a creative writer and I'm not confident and social but you'd expect someone to have morals I feel like I had a friendgroup but no friends everyone goes off into there small groups while I get pushed out stood to the side honestly its ridiculous I get asked how long I'm gonna stay and as much as I want to leave I cant they're the only thing I have I dont wanna be alone but sometimes its safer than sorry I feel like I have a friendgroup but no friends some obvious others not yet use me for my comfort and money but sooner or enough I'll be sorry