failure like me

I'm a complicated person Sometimes I don't know myself Ask people how they view me Some say I'm kind and sweet Some say I'm vile and mean I wish I never existed I cause too much pain in people's My mother, my stepfather I wish you could understand that I don't know what the hell I'm doing God has shown me that I am here for a purpose What is that purpose? Will I ever find out what that purpose is? I don't think I will live up to see what it is All I do is ruin people's lives My father left me, because he didn't want a burden My friend left me because I was too much I ruined my mother's future If it weren't for me she would have been successful If it weren't for me she would have been happier I'm full of disappointment and failure I failed my mother I failed my father I failed my family And I failed myself too