Fading away slowly

(A series based on live events) Always lost in thought without even realizing , chest tightening how could this have happened. once an ideal model for others overpowered by a simple addiction fighting it inside,but each step heavier than the last fighting a losing battle carrying on by shear will power having problems you can't share with others(can you relate) telling myself it'll be ok inside knowing the addiction has already taken root deep down A rotten tomato ruining other tomatoes near it my life just a sore for eyes only if people saw what was being done in the dark "This is the last time" My own mouth spouts nonsense knowing tommorow I will lose again.......