Experience the extreme's.

certainly survived too many times assume yet I've lost count of how many times I awoke instead of my last breath was to be assumed by the love of my life while the Strom by drs here a oath sworn to help they figured my life a mistake simple waste unforgettable tube down my throat and I know I was dead there's no dreaming in that place it's was peaceful but when you are called to come forth and put another lifetime forth for the ex perience thus is the constraints of the great forgetting is easier said then done . pre numbing agent I'm only one without a angel or a demon just a spirit of light who I am whos been in control each every time although small changes and I have now been allowed the knowledge that's all suppose to be a lifting fog for me as I take my last breath . did I forsaken thee gun/needle loaded with enough to kill elephant three Times or more but they don't understand that the gamemasters have built me too strong too hard too much too fast heavy heart and all I do is consume from the tree of life and it's killing me yet similar to as a child while I starved the back yard tap life line.I would fill my stumach to bloated hunger pains fetal curl pre disposed dirty unforgettable unfortunately