existential crisis

I'm scared of my own mind It runs insanely wild sometimes. I have fallen in love with death Like a moth for a light speck O it's so overwhelming over here My heart suffocates without a tear Full of woe are the voices I hear Please stop these acts full of despair I laugh cascades of unknown void Am I faking it or is it all real? I bleed thoughts, charcoal dark Why is it hard to find a tinge of light? Only if I could put a bullet in my head Seize existence and dive into dead Turning myself into abyss for the next decade Sleeping on a silk bed, away I would fade