Exist

Flooded with a load of good memories , You decided to let go who gifted it to you Because you felt you didn't deserve it letting go of them from you..to someone better than you Them being happy making decision bitter sweet Taking deep breaths to keep heart from tearing apart Diverting every thoughts just to keep a smile on face Looking up just to prevent tears from falling Wishing a shoulder to finally break down but afraid to be weak again Trying to let it out but words stuck somewhere between Finally ending up building the higher walls Questioning every decision took for the sake of holding the bond together Thinking why always unlucky in getting love At a point just existing also became hard Just disappearing seems like finally a good decision But somewhere wanting to hold on further a little more