everything and nothing

My emotions begin to pierce the skin of my body, they begin to take over me and drive me crazy. Sick thoughts run through my mind. Harmful thoughts cloud my reasoning. I feel nothing for anyone and I feel too much for everything. I end up doubting my own existence, the existence of the days, the reality of what I perceive. I end up questioning the truth of my words. I wonder if I have memory problems or if it's just a predisposition to lie. Perhaps I'm a compulsive liar, maybe I seek constant attention. All I ask for is healing and a modicum of compassion somewhere.