every single anything

everytime I'm trying but everytime I'm losing everytime I'm crying because of my mind's starving everytime I'm jumping but anytime I'm drowning everywhen im doing something new I can't say that I even knew every single time story repeats itself and I can't no more by myself everytime I'm losing my mind and im refinding my own life everytime I'm lost somewhere the felling is almost like a nightmare every time I'm in troubles time fells like a rubber and in the end of beginning there remains just my ruins I'm running till that day when I will find my every cause my things are totally gone and far from here not enough further ... but still