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I'm just gonna rant for a while, I've got self esteem that's hostile, but not in the good way, unfortunately, I just feel worthless. I'm always comparing, which is bad, I thought I was relating, but that makes me bad, it's selfish to think about yourself you know, of course without doing that you'll never grow, I just want to help, I want to be kind, it's not good enough, and I'm losing my mind, I've tried it all, my patience is wearing thin, when will I just be comfortable in my own skin?